Last Wednesday marked my three year wedding anniversary. Whenever I think about it, I can't help but go back to the days leading up to our ceremony and how nervous I was. I remember feeling sick to my stomach, all tied in knots, and I wanted to call the whole thing off and elope. Or do it in a courthouse with nobody watching. Or maybe fly to Mars where I'm assuming you don't need a marriage license. I was never one of those little girls that dreamed about her wedding day. I wanted a family of course, but I never really gave much thought into what that would entail. When you grow up seeing your parents arguing non-stop, it doesn't exactly give you the warm and fuzzies that marriage can actually work. So while most girls imagined a fairy tale, all I really wanted was just a companion and a friend. I wanted security, and I don't mean monetarily. I wanted someone to share my thoughts and feelings without judgement. Someone to laugh at my stupid jokes, someone who understood that I'm timid and I always need a push to try new things.
We have been together for over ten years now and I don't remember much about love before him. I can't even fathom what dating would be like today. I'm pretty sure I would just give up and get a house full of dogs, maybe a pet pig. I think reality t.v. has ruined relationships. People seem to care more about looks than actually having a partner you could grow old with, someone who won't run if you get hit by a car and end up in a wheelchair. This is going to sound over the top but stay with me here... I like my husband because I know he will be there for me when I'm old, senile, can hardly walk, and need him to wipe my ass for me. I would do the same for him. Now that's love.
So it isn't always pretty. We fight and get angry and bored with each other like all couples inevitably do. But he's my friend, and we chose each other to ride through this messy life. I wouldn't have it any other way...that's the truly romantic part about marriage and monogamy, the part that Hollywood often forgets to tell you in movies. The truth? With all of our shortcomings as human beings, with all of our flaws, we still choose each other every single day.
Lush dress, great option
I would also be remiss if I didn't mention Carylee in this post because she was the one that convinced me to buy my very first pair of Kate Spade Licorice pumps at a steal! Thank you for being a part of my anniversary Caryl! The shoes were a hit, and I felt like I did leave a little sparkle wherever I went that evening :)